Wednesday, October 21, 2009

To You, From Me

The first poem that I wrote for my wife, long before we were married. I can never forget that starry sleepless night that I spent in the Bangalore-Chennai train, gazing towards the distant looming mountains racing past me as I wrote this:

Sleepless stars in the thick of night
Oh my dear, I call your name ..
With some doubts and with some fright
Growth of love in the tiny flame!

Across the skies and over the fields,
Never go back leaving a hole,
Drill the wall and break the shields
Hate my hate to love my soul,
I stand weak against your cold.

Where are you on this dark dead night,
Why are you sleeping when I aint ..
The air is stiff and the head is light,
Sounds from the moon are still so faint,
You arent a nun and I no saint.

Distanced by vast space and oceans,
On grey clouds atop the lonely tree,
Fled my thoughts all set free ..
It smiled across light years,
Winding paths that were fierce.

You stood there with stretched hands;
Calling out my name, the sweet voice,
Going ahead was the only choice ..
I fled as I looked from the train,
Across shining lakes, sans restrain.

As time runs a rainbow of smiles,
Two worlds coming to be one,
Even across the miles,
the hearts have won!!

Monday, June 22, 2009

You Are Invited !!


We would be very glad if you visit our wedding website below.
It has more details about us, about the wedding and you can drop us a word too.


Looking forward to see you at the wedding!!

Saturday, May 09, 2009

On AIR

Well, I went on AIR yesterday. Not in the parachute way, AIR here is All India Radio. I recited some of my tamil poems in the Bangalore AM 'Sneha Bharati' programme.

It was a wonderful experience. First of sorts, seeing the audio visual controls, I couldn't believe it was happening. The recording went through fine with the first take last month, and when I heard it yesterday, it was initially funny listening to my own voice broadcasted over the radio. But then, I got used to it, so I hope about the other listeners too :).

Anyway, it was a wonderful experience; a good break from an otherwise monotonous Bangalore life.

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

வணக்கம் உலகம்

புறம் வகை வணக்கம்
{
        புறம் தன்னிலை காலி முக்கியம்(வார்த்தை[] வாதங்கள்)
        {
                அமைப்பு.வெளியே.சொல்கூறு("வணக்கம் உலகம்");
        }
}

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

The Crappiest Song

After listening to this song for about 10 15 years now, I still am not able to decide if I like it or hate it. It comes with an amazing tune and the crappiest lyrics I have ever heard. Very fittingly, it is for Ramarajan!

I am so pissed off with the lyrics I am blogging it.

பல்லவி

சொர்கமே என்றாலும் அது நம்மூர போல வருமா?
- வராதா? அப்போ ஏன் எல்லாரும் செத்த அப்பறம் சொர்கத்துக்கு போகனும்னு ஆசை படறாங்க?

எந்நாடு என்றாலும் அது நம் நாட்டுக்கீடாகுமா?
- எப்போதான் நம்ம trumpet அடிக்கறத நிறுத்த போறோம்?
As SRK lays it down clearly in swades, unless we accept our mistakes, we will never improve.

தேசம் முழுதும் பேசும் மொழிகள் தமிழ் போல் இனித்திடுமா?
- வெச்சிடாங்கல்லே! அது எப்படியா? எங்க போனாலும் சுத்தி சுத்தி மொழி பிரச்சினை இல்ல ஜாதி பிரச்சினைக்கு வந்துடறீங்க? மொத 2 line
இந்தியா பத்தி பாடிட்டு எப்படிஉடனே communalism-a சேர்த்து விட்டாங்கய்யா!

சரணம் 1

ஏரிக்கரை காத்தும் ஏலேலேலோ பாட்டும் இங்க ஏதும் கேட்கவில்லையே!
- எப்படி? Singapore நடூல எப்படி கேட்கும் ங்கறேன்? இத கேக்கறதுக்கா Singapore போனீங்க? போன வேலைய பாக்காம ஊர வெட்டியா சுத்திட்டு பாட்டு வேற! ஊருல இருக்கும் போது தண்ணிய போட்டுட்டு அம்மாவ எட்டி உதைக்க வேண்டியது, Singapore போய் ஏலேலேலேலோ பாட்டு கேக்க வேண்டியது!

பாடும் குயில் சத்தம் ஆடும் மயில் நித்தம் பாக்க ஒரு சோலயில்லையே!
- இதெல்லாம் இந்தியாலயே எல்லா இடத்துலயும் கிடையாது. எதுகை மோனை நல்லா இருக்குனு எத ஒன்னா எழுதறதா?

வெத்தலைய மடிச்சி மாமன் அத கடிச்சி துப்ப ஒரு வழியில்லையே!
- து கன்றாவி! I don't wana write anything about this, this is the worst line ever. shows how much we take our roads for granted!

ஓடி வந்து குதிச்சு முங்கி முங்கி குளிச்சு ஆட ஒரு ஓடையில்லையெ!
- Bungee Jumping, Sea Surfing இதெல்லாம் தெரியலையாம், முங்கி குளிக்க ஒரு ஓடை வேணுமாம். வெளியூருலையும் ஓடை இருக்குங்கோவ்! சுத்தமா எருமை மாடு குளிக்காத ஓடை! இந்தியால நல்லதா எவ்ளோ இருக்கு? இத பத்தியா எழுதனும்?

இவ்வூரு என்ன ஊரு நம்மூரு ரொம்ப மேலு ..
- There you go again! Objected to as insufficient, incompetent and irrelevant!

அட ஓடும் பல காரு வீன் ஆடம்பரம் பாரு ..
- எந்த ஊர்ல இது நியாயம்? Car வெச்சிருந்தா ஆடம்பரமாம். Unforunately, a lot of people think this way. But everyone strives to buy one. And if they are not able to buy one, down with capitalism!

ஒரு தாகம் தீற ஏது மோரு?
- அட பாவிகளா! Singapore-ல மோரு கிடைக்காதா?

சரணம் 2

மாடு கன்னு மேய்க்க மேயத பார்க்க மந்தவெளி இங்க இல்லையே!
- ராமராஜன் கிட்ட வேற என்ன பெருசா எதிர் பாக்க முடியும்? இதெல்லாம் ஒரு பெருமையாவே எடுத்துகிட வேன்டியது! வெட்டியா சுத்தறத ஒரு பொழப்பாவே ஆக்கிட்டங்கய்யா!

ஆடு புலி ஆட்டம் போட்டு விளையாட அரச மரம் மேடையில்லை
யே!
- You get the drift right? எத சொன்னாலும் அத பெருமையா சொல்லிக்கறது.

காள ரெண்டு பூட்டி கட்ட வண்டி ஓட்டி கானம் பாட வழியில்லையே
- Sigh! இதுலையும் பெருமையா? It's a nice experience though.

தோழிகளை அழைச்சு சொல்லி சொல்லி ரசிச்சு ஆட்டம் போட முடியலையே ..
- ஏனா எல்லாரும் இங்க ஊர்ல இருக்காங்க. அங்க போய் உக்காந்து பாடினா? Friends பிடி மகனே. தமிழ் மட்டும் தான் பேசுவேன், English hindi லாம் பேச மாட்டேன்னு சொன்னா வேலைக்காவாது.


ஒரு யந்திரத்த போல அட இங்கே உள்ள வாழ்கை ..
- கனகாம்பட்டி-ல நிறைய activities போல .. எச்சை துப்பறது, மாடு மேய்க்கறது மாதிரி ..

இத எங்கே போய் சொல்ல மனம் இஷ்ட பட வில்ல ..
- அப்போ மூடு!

நம்மூர போல ஊரும் இல்ல ..
- அட ராமா! என்ன ஏன் இந்த மாதிரி கழிசடை பசங்களோடலாம் கூட்டு சேர வெக்கற?!!

And when singing all this, Ramarajan and Gowthami actually go around singapore, and they show all the beautiful beaches, water-bikes, hi-rise buildings, boat-rides and theme parks!

Next time you listen to this song, think about it. Isn't the whole lyrics aimed towards blowing our own trumpet without any depth? Actually, we have lot better things to be proud of, than the crappy things written down here. And our people have the uncanny ability to pick up such songs, take pride in the said things and make it a super duper hit. God save India!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

The Software Culture

Software Engineering in India, if plotted on a graph of Time vs. State, would be a Sinusoidal wave. It has had its crests and troughs, majorly as repurcussions or aftermaths of the pressure generated across the sea. I represent a small speck in the vast number of Indians who surf the wave of Software Engineering, and the ride is pretty much what it is - A Ride. It has made its mark in India and has swept the Indians off their foot. It has been the solace of many a souls that would have done God-Knows-What otherwise. It has changed the face of Indian Economy, both in the sub-continental and international scale. The only other cult that I could think of that has made such a massive impact on Indians is Cricket. Not that I mean to compare Cricket and Software Engineering. If I do, I am sure the former will win. But when it comes to life itself, there is nothing to beat the effect of Software Engineering on Indians.

When the wave of Software Engineering started reaching the shores of India, I was probably crawling on all my fours. By the time I learnt my ABC's and moved on to bigger things, the intoxication of "My son is studying to become an Engineerrrr or Doctorrrr, and I will be a proud Fatherrr one day" had taken over most Indians. I chose MPC (Maths/Physics/Chemisty), because I liked the Pythagorous theorem, Newton's laws and the colour of Copper Sulphate, in that order. I did not choose Biology because I could neither draw a straight line without a ruler nor could I remember Complexi Nameosis. Why bother to call an earthworm an earthworm, when you can call it Lumbricus terrestris? Not my forte! Though I excelled in biology in my class, I had the wisdom to know it was more a drive for the first rank, than any serious love. Physics was waiting for me with open hands, those generous fingers and sensuous eyes with which it invited and enveloped thousands and thousands into its gravitational bosom. The Newtons and Einsteins of this world manifested themselves in me and soon, I was working 16-hour days in the foot steps of DAV (my hi-scool), the magical three letters that will suck your life out of you only to make you search for it elsewhere. The effect of Physics and Chemistry on me was phenomenal, Computers was not even an option then. I was lost in the mechanics of heat, the entropy of this universe, in the electronic rain and in orgaaaaaa-nic chemisty! Oh I loved it! The carbons and hydrogens and oxygens were my lifeline and boy, I loved it.

I mention DAV, because it was the first place I came in direct contact with computers. I opened up the DOS prompt and that was my first peek into the other world, one in which I would eventually belong. Quickly, I learnt to list files and write programs that told me 2 + 3 was 5. I was awed to learn that input and output devices existed and that I could actually touch them. You would want to know that my friends were already playing video games by this time, and some of them even had their own computers. I once pressed ctrl+alt+del because the computer asked me to, and lo, it shutdown! Obviously I did not know what that was, and I broke sweat. It was in the lab and I sincerely thought I had done some unrecoverable mistake and terminated the computer's life. By the time I gathered the guts to call the lab technician and told him my heinous deed, I was a nervous wreck. When he coolly switched on the goddamn thing with the swipe of a finger, and the monitor whirred to life, I knew I had fallen in love with the magic box, then and there.

I could never forget the counselling session for engineering admissions. It was the peak-est time of Indians craving for a seat in Computer Science or in Information Technnology. All around me, it felt like a slow-motion of students marching towards glory, those with seats in Computer Science. Fathers called for last-minute advices, Mothers prayed in temples, Sisters waited to show-off, families sat on the seat-edge. The whole of India came to a stand-still those two months in 1999, when all engineering seats were being fast-filled, especially those in computers. Management and Sponsored seats were suddenly an option for the poor government worker struggling to rake in money. I was probably one of the very few who wanted to do Mechanical Engineering in Anna University (I wanted that combo) and got it. "My son got a computer science seat, you didn't get one?" - Silence. "Infosys and Cognizant and TCS are calling and you chose Mechanical Engineering?" - Silence. "You really want to be a mechanic?" - (Gosh!) Silence. "Anna University? That's fine. But Mechanical Engineering? You are an intelligent boy, you should have chosen Computers" - Silence. All I wanted then was to do a phD in Thermodynamics. Seriously.

Seniors getting placed in Software Companies was the talk of the campus. They came in thousands and took in thousands. People talked of huge bench strength, strong onsite-offshore model and I heard of new terms like "Organizational Behavior", "Architectural Baseline" and "Growing Economy". The dual degree was offered in the second year and most of us grabbed the opportunity. This would change my life forever, the B.Tech in Information Technology in addition to B.E., in Mechanical Engineering. The C's and C plus plusses were romantic. Java was almost healing. I lost myself in computers, not because the world around me lost in it, but because I really liked it. But most of the people were caught in the wave, pushing themselves along with others, the synergy of the booming economy.

The time after graduation was one of the best! Indian culture became open-mided, and this concept of a "typical software engineer" came up. A typical software engineer is supposed to be ending every sentence with a "man" or "dude". He dresses like a hippie, except that the clothes are new. He wears faded jeans, talks of rock and jazz, comes to office with red eyes and unkempt hair, and has a small paunch. He parties, smokes, drinks - all a part of the software cult. Posters are everywhere - "Failed 10th? Failed 12th? Join G-NEET. Become a Software Engineer". Software was chosen as the last resort if you don't succeed in anything else. Why care when it is waiting? There were ads showing software managers wearing Armani Suits grabbing any guy who comes out a software learning centre. Sadly and oddly, they really did!

And the hunt was on! "24, Fair looking female, decent family, well brought-up, looking for a US-return Software Engineer" or "23, South-Indian Mallu girl, looking for a Software Engineer in US". All you had to do back then, to get yourself married was to go to the US. Even if it is just for three months, you did! Software Engineers were seen as visas themselves to settle the girls well in a foreign country. And it was rolling. "Where are you working? Haan? What is that? Mera beta working in Infosys. You know, Narayanmoorthy! Send your bio-daata to him, he will get you a job in Infosys". Mr. Narayanmoorthy became a household name. He deserves it, but not in this fashion. Then the recession hit! And it hit hard! "Hey, they tell me all Indians are coming back. Really? How can US do this to us?" - Because it's their f-country and they have the right! "Dude, I heard people are being laid off? True?" - Don't scare the hell out of me man.

The complaints against them pile up. The normal government worker is not able to accept the fact that they are being paid high. But it's not a 9-5 job. "These software engineers! They just sit in one place and they are paid so much!" - Why complain? No-one is paying if there is not a price for it. Software Engineers do work their a$$ off. So what, if there is a small party over the weekend? Is it wrong because you cannot afford it? "It spoils Indian Culture" - What spoils? Partying or beating up women for it? "Arey beta! I am too scared to look for a software engineer now. What if he loses his job?" - The most knowledgeable scheming Indian Aunties who start fretting about a girl's marriage the moment she is born, so you can't really blame them. Doctors are busy ragging juniors to death. Lawyers are busy protesting in courts and beating up students. Chartered Accountants are busy crunching numbers and planning. Software Engineers are busy partying, huh?

And the wave rolls! It goes on. I live in this world because I like it. I do want to do my masters, but I want to do it with experience, may be as honours or in research. I do want to work in computers because they run the world. They make satellites work, they generate your bills in shopping malls, they help you send mails to your children overseas, they help industries store data, they help in researching markets, they make software for your kid's learning, they are cool.

As I said to that guy who interviewed me long back - "I liked C, fell in love with C++, and married JAVA".

Ciao!

Monday, December 01, 2008

The Cost of Freedom

I suppose I have to write this and find a way to save it through the end of us, so the next race of living things find out how humans terminated themselves.

Suppose some commander in an ultra-deep movement, with resources and influence all over the world thought of hatching a plan to potentially cause a war. A war needs two sides and there cannot be a better prospect than one country split into two, constantly pointing fingers at each other. With Srilanka engulfed in an internal war with the LTTE, there needs to be little said about the already prevailing tensions in the subcontinental area. It only needs a small trigger such as a group of 10 to 12 people shooting indiscriminately, to start speculations on a global basis as to who could be responsible. Speculations lead to confusions, confusions to accusations, accusations to summons and summons to wars. Idea has enlightened!

Suppose he decides to put together exactly such a group of young men who do not have anything to lose except their lives, whose love they have already been brainwashed out of. Suppose these men (boys) have always been told their only purpose in life is to lay it down for one common purpose. Suppose there are men (boys) in this world who wake up everyday thinking they are destined to die today. Suppose these young "recruits" have been rhetroically stressed to a point so it just takes less than a second to fire at someone without any private motive. Suppose their heart ticks only by the rush of insulin brought forth by seeing the fear in the eyes of someone whose death is in their hands. Recuriting has finished!

Suppose these men are re-brained to think that more blood is the only way to clean blood. Suppose the minds of these men has reached a level of fanatisicm where they just need to pull a trigger to convince themselves out of any doubt. Suppose they are trained rigorously in real combat conditions that are easily created by small terror plots, in which more innocent lives can be claimed, with the actual goal in mind. Suppose they are administered with a sense of power and money that they can never dream of otherwise. Suppose they are made to travel around the world with genuinely fake passports and trained in different parts to speak fluent English, Hindi and Arabic - Probably more languages too. Suppose they are spoken to often by the commander himself to keep their motivation levels up, to indirectly gain control of their senses and nerves and in the end, their lives itself. Suppose these men are adept enough to survive for long periods without food and sleep in conditions of extreme stress, when they feel normal is only when the heart ticks at the rate of 110 beats per second. Training is perfect!

Suppose resources are tapped and movements are made. Suppose plans are obtained and buildings are surveyed. Suppose docks are compromised and intelligence gets involved. Suppose spies are abundant and traitors are manipulated. Suppose hotels are recced and rooms are booked. Suppose cars move around and eyes pry. Suppose Cafes are chosen and vantage points identified. Suppose arms are abundant and kitchens are breached. Suppose the voyage began and the carnage completes. Suppose the war could happen. Planning is treacherous!

Suppose the men (boys) assemble and are given code names for the brief final stint they are about to pull off. Suppose they hijack a ship and arrive on the docks of an otherwise serene scenic Arabian sea. Suppose they split into groups and run away to pre-determined spots where more arms have already been made available. Suppose there is nothing more perfect for them than fire indiscriminately at men, women and even children in a railway station and hospital. Suppose it is just perfect for them to cystallize into luxurious hotels where people are prominent. Suppose the ever-hungry media, always craving for some news hit a golden goose, a bumper prize coverage for days together, providing a perfect platform to spread their message of terror. Suppose there are enough drugs, guns and time to kill a sea of people who all love their lives and relatives and friends. Suppose it is an added bonanza to actually kill the police and army, which would also salvage some pride for the operation. Suppose people cry, suppose they shout, suppose they run, suppose they die. Suppose the men (boys) get the opportunity to kill thousands of men among which could be Indians, Americans, the British, Germans and Jews. ATS chief Hemant Karkare dies. DIG Ashok Kamte dies. Encounter specialist Vijay Salaskar dies. Major Sandeep Unnikrishnan dies. Havildar Chander dies. Havildar Gajendar Singh dies. A lot of others die a martyr's death. Operation begun!

Suppose it is conveniently spoiled. Suppose only one gets caught and the others die. Suppose the one who is caught has got thousand ways to die, but he chooses to get caught instead. Suppose he plants information that he is from Pakistan. Suppose he says he has been trained by an ultra-deep movement, based out of Pakistan, in Pakistan, for an year. Suppose he plants information that he has been trained by an Ex-Pakistani soldier. Suppose he plants much more information, relating everything to Pakistan. Suppose the Indian Government is led to believe there is enough proof to take offence. Suppose Pakistan just shrugs it off by promising co-operation. Suppose there are people who are not satisfied with the investigations and play dirty politics. Suppose there is rampage everywhere. Suppose there are borders of uncertainity, of an en-masse of explosives hanging about in air, and just anyone could light one fuse and the fire spreads. Suppose the ideology is achieved without even preaching it. Suppose anything could be led to. Suppose, just suppose, there is World War Three !!

Suppose it is that shudderingly easy ..

Whereas, continuing life in the same shade is not easy. I am an Indian, not able to digest the fact that this could happen to Mumbai, a place I love and long to go to. I am an Indian, not able to believe that the doves in the shore of Arabian sea could flutter their wings to echo the sounds of gunshots rather than those of setting sun. I am an Indian, not able to digest the dirty politics played by politicians of this country to gain some leverage for themselves and their party even at the mouth of an impending disaster. I am an Indian, not able to convince myself there will be peace anymore in India. I am an Indian, not able to control the tears that pour out even as I write this, thinking about the funerals of the brave men who laid their lives down for us, so we could wake up to one more day of freedom. I am an Indian who loves the world, not driven by fanaticism that my country is superior, but by a fantasy that all countries are equal.

Freedom comes at a special cost - The cost of some unknown selfless lives which never can be compensated anything with!